Disclaimer: Let me first say that I am NOT an expert when it comes to diabetes, management and diagnosis. This is strictly from MY experience.
Let me start from the beginning –
It was the best and worse time of my life. I was marrying the man of my dreams, my family was coming to Australia for the wedding (from Canada) and I had just landed a promotion. How good was life right? Wrong – I had never felt worse in my life.
It was probably near Christmas time when I really started to notice the changes the most. I worked for Pandora in the busiest store in the City and I was exhausted. I boiled it down to working butt off (alotta hours a week), planning a wedding, planning the honey moon, planning for my promotion, planning the family etc.
January came quickly and I had absolutely no energy and constant ache in my side. Every time I would eat I would need to lay down afterwards, eating was so tiring. Not only that I was drinking water. A LOT of water. Unhealthy amounts of water – about 7L of water A DAY! Obviously I was peeing every 15 minutes..
I also looked so skinny! Right, I was also training x4 times a week and running daily. Exercise is meant to make me feel like I have more energy, and of course I looked fit! — thanks to my beautiful PT
I was unable to concentrate. My brain felt like it had up and left my body and I was literally a zombie.
The headaches.. this was the real punch line. Constant constant constant headaches. Everywhere. All. The. Time.
February came up and it was wedding time!! I was watching KUWTK and I thought to myself, how do these girls have so many energy to do everything they do? I’m literally always so tired – how can they do this! At this stage I was drinking 10-15 cups of coffee a day to stay awake. I thought to myself, how am I going to stay awake on the wedding day? Will I have a time to have a nap?
I got my dress the Wednesday before our wedding and those bitches … it was altered (4 times mind you) and it was still too big.. Unfortunately, there was nothing they could do, and my beautiful strapless dress was not so perfect. (turns out I had lost about 5 kgs in about 2 weeks.. thank you diabetes)
Well, I made it through the wedding (OMG IT WAS AMAZING!!!!)
Time for the honeymoon! Dean and I worked our little butts off to be able to pay for our wedding. And we did just that. Our entire wedding was paid for 30 days in advance Now, it’s time to let our hair down and have a wonderful time! Only I just couldn’t do it. I was exhausted to the max, and my husband was not impressed.. he was angry with me.
We got back from our honeymoon and at the beginning of April my headaches were so severe, I just couldn’t take it anymore. Dean expressed his concern that his friend in high school had a headache for 4 days and it turns out she had a tumour and died the next day. So it was time to see our GP.
I went to our GP and from the waiting room to his office (about 7 metres) I was completely out of breath. I told him this and right away he finger pricked me and the reading was – 26.5. I told him could it be from my breakfast? I had ate a pear and a slice of toast! We immediately got blood work done and within 12 hours I was at an Endocrinologists. The irony is that I was diagnosed over the Easter long weekend – no choccy for me!
I was ashamed, it was Easter weekend and my husband had preplanned a hunting trip away. I told him he had to go and I would be fine. I was petrified…. but I did survive.
We went to our family day Easter Lunch and only being diagnosed the day before I had to inject myself with a needle!?? WHOAAA??? I was so uncomfortable with this (even to this day I feel uneasy with it, do people think I’m taking drugs??) I did not want to do this in front of anyone. FOR MONTHS it took me the courage to do it in front of family.
I had also been feeling so sick during this time, I was diagnosed with CMV virus. Being so sick though I thought it was caused by my birth control.. So I stopped the birth control and bam slam damn – 9 months later we welcomed a beautiful baby boy! – T1D and pregnancy.. another blog posts.. or 22 to go
In September I was put onto the Medtronic 640G pump. Hmm best thing eva! If you want to have more control and don’t mind you, your partner and your pump in bed together, the pump is for you! (another blog post maybe?)
So as I publish this post, I have been diagnosed with T1D for 2.5 years (I was 25). Literally, hate this disease and love it at the same time. But I would like to say it is a disease of inconvenience and wouldn’t wish it on anyone. It’s very challenging and more challenging if you’re a parent of a child with diabetes (oh my heart goes out to you all)
I wanted to give you a little back story to how I was diagnosed and let’s continue this journey together!!